Dismay Mixed with Happiness

Friday's Goals

Exercise: Cardio

Calories: 1800

Friday's Accomplishments

Exercise: Cardio

Calories: 1800

(Okay, a disclaimer....this photo is not me, but the girdle is similiar to the one I talk about below).

I didn't feel like working out this morning - I was feeling a little run down and tired, but I dragged myself outside for a walk anyway. I walked for 45 minutes at a healthy pace (although no jogging today, as I didn't have that much energy).

I did well with my calories today despite eating one meal out. For breakfast I had a shake (300). I was at a meeting this afternoon and they provided us with lunch. I had a large round roll with what I guessed to be 2 ounces of cheese and 1 tbs of mayonnaise (about 684), a large Coke (250), 1/2 cup of pasta salad (estimated at 135) and 1/2 cup of fruit salad (50). I was craving chocolate later in the afternoon so I decided to have that instead of dinner (390). Now that it's 8:30 p.m. and I am hungry, I regret the chocolate but I am not going to eat anything else.

Out of curiosity, I pulled my wedding dress out tonight to see how far I still have to go (remember, my goal is to be back at my wedding size). I was dismayed to discover that I REALLLLLY have a way to go! The back of the dress (where it zippers) is WAY apart...the gap between the zipper closing is about 5 inches wide. I was shocked! It disgusts me when I think of how out of control I let my size get. Oh well. I am on the right path now and it's all forward momentum now.

The red gala dress fits a little better, although it's still too snug to wear to the gala (it's too clingy on my stomach area and I look too bulgy in it - especially since the satin material reflects light and emphasizes bulges). I have this girdle-type thingie that I bought a long time ago so I tried the red dress on while wearing that. The girdle I have is an extremely tight-squeezing, extra-high waisted panty-type thing and although it is very effective at smoothing out and flattening tummy bulge, the fat has to go somewhere, so it gets pushed UPWARDS, creating a roll of fat above the waistline of the girdle and rendering the torture device totally useless.

But now a happy thing to report...about 2-3 weeks ago when I was doing my summer-to-fall clothing switcharoo, I came across these cool velvet pants that I had gotten too big for and haven't worn in years. I used to wear these in the last band I was in (in 2000). Anyway, out of curiosity, I tried them on and I was delighted that I was able to squeeze into them - they were tight and I had to suck my gut in and use some muscle to get the zipper up, but I was just thrilled to get them on at all!

Tonight (3 weeks later) I decided to try them on again to see if they fit any better and guess what? They are borderline LOOSE on me now! In only 3 weeks!

Oh, and my wedding ring is about falling off of me. I keep telling myself to hold off getting it resized because I know I still have a way to go and don't want to have to pay to get it resized twice, but I think I may have no choice. It's literally about to slide off my finger. And to think, just a year or so ago, I had to have it resized UP because I couldn't get it off my fat finger (the jeweler literally had to cut it off me to resize it because there was no getting that ring off).

So a mixture of dismay and happiness today, but I guess that's how it will be for awhile. I am thrilled about my progress, but I am aware that I still have a haul to get to my goal. That's okay. As long as I am making steady progress, I can be patient.